Yeah, I'm still weighing in.
Even though I haven't been "weighing in" about it here.
I admit that I've been avoiding the whole weight conversation. I'm very frustrated with myself right now and I just can't seem to find the words to express how I'm feeling. Since joining Team Black in the Sisterhood's new challenge I've actually gained weight. I'm up 2lb since the beginning of the challenge. That's absolutely ridiculous. To be completely fair to myself I have lost some, but then those pounds seemed to find me again and I'm back to square one.
The thing is, I know what my problem is.
One word: motivation.
I'm so lacking it lately.
I'm not counting points, not running, not using my EA Active or Wii Fit, and yet I weigh in and complain about what I'm seeing. It's like I expect results when I'm not doing anything to earn them. I even said something to Dave the other day about feeling fat and his response was "well why don't you lose some more weight. " I've been so slack lately that he didn't even realize that I was still trying to lose some more.
You would think that after losing 40+ pounds, I would know where to go next. But, I think the problem is that losing those forty-some pounds wasn't that difficult for me. I knew what I had to do and did it. The pounds just sort of came off. Now I'm not saying it was easy by any means. I completely changed my eating habits and had to make tough choices like turning away chocolate here and there, but I did it and I saw results. However, I've been within 10lb of my goal weight now for over a year. On one side I'm pretty proud of that because it shows that I have made lifestyle changes that have allowed me to maintain, but on the other hand I'm frustrated because I came so far and can't get over the last bump.
I've had many people tell me that maybe this is just where my body is meant to be, but I don't believe it. I am on the very top end of the healhty BMI range and body weight for my height. There is definitely not a concern that I'm too skinny! I'm not ready to quit.
So for all of my fellow weight watchin people I'm asking you for some advice. Have you been where I am now? What did you do to get out of the rut? How did you find your motivation? I am all ears and open to anything you have to say.